Well.....I don't really know what it all adds up to, since I only added the caramel last weekend. But, now I'm considering the wisdom of the choice/possibility of continuing to pile on a topping here and a topping there, until I get to the finishing touch of placing the cherry ever-so-carefully on top. If I do, will it all fall apart? Will it taste as good as it looks? Do I really want it?

Okay, enough with my silly metaphors. Let me me be blunt and specific.

I've known this couple for several years...even longer than I've known Mr. O. We'll call them John and Jenny. Now, I've sort of always been attracted to John. I'd never do or say anything about it because I'm friends with Jenny. (Well, that isn't completely true...I told her once that if he wasn't with her, I'd totally swipe him up...and she told me that I was at the top of his list if they were to fall through - sort of as a joke...but sort of not). Anyhow, to get to the point. Since Mr. O and I have started thinking about swinging, we always talk about who we are attracted to and why. Since we are in the very early stages, we're still discussing expectation and boundaries and such. John and Jenny have come up in our conversations before. Mr. O would have no problem being with Jenny and I would have no problem being with John. I even find Jenny quite attractive...apparently more than I thought.

Last weekend we went out with John and Jenny. After several glasses of wine, I got a wild hair up my behind and put my arm around Jenny (the guys were sitting opposite us talking about whatever guys talk about). The guys started teasing about a girl sitting alone near us and another guy who was with us joked about going to hit on her. I told them if he didn't I would and then pretended mock shock that I'd said such a thing. Somehow, from here, my internal brazen vixen took hold of me and I mentioned something about seducing Jenny. We all laughed and Jenny and I continued talking about it. I asked her if she'd ever kissed a girl; she said no and asked me if I had, and I said yes. A few sentences later, I put her to the test and there we were, kissing! OMFG! I think the guys (esp. Mr. O, were kind of speechless).

Now, these "vanilla" friends don't know we are in the market for playing with others. But, after the kissing, Jenny brought up the idea of having a "girl's weekend". I made mention then of the fact that Mr. O and I are in this together. Of course, she seemed confused, so I sort of let on that we were interested in being with other couples...that we'd even joined a club. She seemed concerned and told me that we should be careful, that she wouldn't want us to get any diseases. I assured her that we were...in fact, that we hadn't "actually" done anything with anyone else yet.

I don't completely remember what happened after that. But, on our way home, Mr. O and I discussed where this might lead. One part of me thinks it could be perfect. Another is worried about the friendship. And still another about John and Jenny's relationship. Could this put a kink in their relationship? Should I have thought more before I took advantage of the situation?

Only time will tell on this one. I kind of figured she'd wake up the next morning and completely forget about it (a blank out due to wine). But John didn't...he mentioned it to Mr. O just a few days ago...sort of a "So, man...the girls got kinda wild last weekend, huh?" sort of thing.

Don't know where to go from here:confused:...so I'm just going to play it by ear. At least now the pink elephant is visible to everyone and maybe one of us will feed it. Hell, maybe we'll even give it a name and keep it.