I've never really been the kind of gal to go on dates. I meet guys at parties, at work, at school...and over a long period of being friends...then being friends who kiss...then being friends who spend the night...suddenly we just wake up one day and decide we're "together."

In college I had a couple of "dates" that were very awkward, boring, long, offensive...etc. And just decided it wasn't my thing.

For this whole experiment to work though...I couldn't avoid the first dates. Yes yes, I could meet people at parties & meet-n-greets, but I'd rather walk into those already knowing a person or two...so there had to be at least a few dates at the beginning to get started.

Soooo....I had my second "first date" last night, and it was great! I'm learning a lot about myself. For instance...I'm much more confident and relaxed than I thought I was. I don't get nervous, I don't freak out, I don't get the butterfly thing (I keep waiting, it hasn't happened at all...not even on the first 'play' date).

Back in high school and the first two years of college, I was an introvert...painfully shy and DEATHLY afraid of people. It wasn't really who I was, but it took a year of antidepressants and many years of trial & error to figure that out. Now that I'm "me"...I am so extroverted that it boggles my mind. If you had told the me of college that I would grow up, move alone to california, and eventually meet people on the internet for the purpose of having sex...sometimes group sex...i would have fainted. LOL. But then tell me that I would do it without hesitation, nerves, or second thoughts...I'd have laughed and realized you were from an alternate dimension.

This is fun. I like meeting the me of the alternate dimension.

Anyway, back to topic....I enjoy dating now! I really have had a lot of fun just meeting different random people and spending an evening chatting and finding our common ground! It's great that there is this secret sexy naughty undertone to the purpose of the conversation, but I think I'd love it even if there wasn't.

I've got a lot of "first dates" set up, and I'm seriously looking forward to all of them. The people are so diverse and interesting. And the more we talk about who we are as people, the more I discover about myself. And the more I fall in love with life! I love people! I love them!