thankfully...as predicted by the members here...the inbox is not filling quite as quickly anymore! phew!

so i've just about got all the emails from my hiatus answered. i do love that "quick reply" option! i fear at times it might sound a bit too generic....but i need to stop worrying about it.

i'm learning that I really do have an aversion to "newer" couples. at first i wanted to keep an open mind about it, but as time has gone on, i've had a lot more concerns pop up in my mind. i'm just not experienced enough to be able to tell whether a newer couple is really ready, and I don't want to put myself in any drama situation. that, and i'm still just slightly (slightly) shy myself, and although i'm wildly up for anything...i'm not very good at getting the party started. i don't want to have to be the instigator, especially if i'm not sure what the couple's comfort level is.

that said, i've met with two newer couples lately, and i think i need to act on my instincts. one couple that i just want to get to know a lot better before we start anything, and i need to find a way to say so. and another couple that I just didn't feel a spark with (important for me), and i also need to be able to say so. both couples were incredibly nice, and i appreciated meeting both of them. i guess this is just part of life...and the lifestyle.

in other news...4 weeks till i have to squeeze into a bridesmaids dress. 4 weeks to torture myself with weight loss. hmmmmm..we'll see how this goes!