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I have a case of the green eyed monster
and it relates to swinging, but not in the way you'd think. I'm not jealous of my husband, I'm not jealous of women who pay him attention. I'm not jealous of someone that is getting to play with someone I want to play with... well Ok maybe I am, in a way.
I'm jealous of anyone who gets to enjoy swinging instead of just living vicariously through message boards. I get to go to parties, I get to have fun and flirt and make out and dance and have a wonderful time. But, we can't play! I think I posted a while back about how I managed to throw my neck out masturbating, that combined with the sex that followed it clued us in to something. Sex is bad for me! At least at the moment.... and at least if there's an orgasm involved. If there's multiple orgasms involved it's even worse. So sex is now at a minimum in our household, which means (and this should be obvious) that swinging is not an option. Although I have given Pet my blessing to enjoy whatever/whomever he has the opportunity, he will not take it. He will not play without me. I can understand, if the roles were reversed I wouldn't do it either. But, I feel bad. As bad as I feel physically, I feel worse for him having to go without.
And I'm jealous of all the fun that all of you are having. I find that when I'm not able to really enjoy swinging that I have a very hard time really enjoying the board as well. I can read it, and I can give advice but not to the same extent that I can when I'm in the thick of it (so to speak). My heart just isn't in it when I can't really enjoy it.
I'm not looking for a pity party, just more wanted to share why I may not seem as active on here lately as I normally am.
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