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What to do, what to do ? ...Decisions, decisions...
I haven't been around much the past month or so and there is a good reason...Ted gave us a serious medical scare a couple of days after we returned from our "Mountain Creek Grove" trip back at the beginning of July. He's better now, back to normal and things are going to be okay, but the scare was bad enough that I stayed in North Carolina with him the whole month of July because he couldn't drive due to the dizziness he was having.
I'll say right now that even though I've never been so scared in all my life, it was one of the best months he and I have ever spent with each other. We were together 24 hours a day for almost a full month...and enjoyed every minute of it...and really didn't want it to end. It also re-enforced our decision we made back in June, of spending every weekend together.
Back in June he and I decided that since our youngest had graduated from high school, there was no reason for us to spend every other weekend apart...(as a bit of back story, Ted lives in North Carolina, I live in Florida and he comes home every other weekend )...with me no longer having any obligation to stay home on the weekends that he doesn't come home, it was decided that I would travel to North Carolina and spend the weekend with him....it's working out great as the weekends he comes home we spend with the kids (yes, they are all grown now, but for some unknown reason we can't get rid of them and they all still want to be here, the whole weekend, that their dad is here )...the weekends I go to stay with him, we have all to ourselves .
The problem we are facing is that this weekend is my weekend to go stay with him, something I was really looking forward to, as well...not only was I going to get to spend the weekend with Ted (sans kids), but we kind of had plans on getting together with a single friend for some playtime.
However, we have a daughter who is pregnant, and although she's not due till the end of the month, according to her OB from her last appointment (last week), she is already dilating and effaced 70%...which basically means we could be having another grandbaby any day now, or it could be another two weeks before the baby is born. We were really hoping she'd go into labor this past weekend since Ted was home, but no such luck.
My "What to do" question isn't really a question as I "know" what I have to do...stay home this weekend...but that doesn't make me feel any better. I want to be with Ted this weekend, not sitting around waiting to see if just "maybe" our daughter goes into labor...I know that once our daughter goes into labor he's on his way home and we'll have a few days with each other, but it won't be the same. Yes, we may be weird parents in that we've always been there when one of our daughters were giving birth...we didn't miss the first three and we're not going to miss this one, but damnit...we were suppose to have at least one more weekend to ourselves before we had to bow to the responsibilities of being parents/grandparents.
Our daughter goes back to the OB tomorrow...not that it really matters what he says...as Ted and I decided tonight that I would be staying home this weekend as it's just getting too close to our new granddaughter being born and I need to be here for our daughter...just in case.
There is however still hope...if our daughter would go into labor either tomorrow, Thursday or Friday...Ted would be on his way home, and if she'd have the baby before or by Friday night sometime we'd still be able to be with her and make our favorite house party on Saturday night...that just happens to be this coming weekend.
That may seem callus and selfish, but we realized a long time ago that children grow up and form their own lives and eventually really don't want to have their parents around, so you nurture the relationship you have with each other...because in the end, all you have is each other. Hence, the disappointment of me not going to N.C. this weekend (spending time with Ted and possible play time) and/or Ted not coming home this weekend, if our daughter doesn't go into labor (again, time with him and possible play time).
We'll put our lives on hold for our children/grandchildren, but we won't stop hoping and/or planning for our own time with each other and what WE want to do.
Damn kids...I love them more than life itself, but they sure do put a damper on what me and their father wants to do at times.
T.
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