We had a date this weekend. I was really looking forward to it, since we really like this couple. Unfortunately, the male half imbibed a bit too much, and it affected his performance.

While I know it wasn’t his intention, and it had nothing to do with me, it was just one more thing that put a chink in my self confidence.

I even began questioning whether I wanted to continue putting up with this frustration, and told Mr. Sweet I was done with the lifestyle.

He knew I was frustrated, but said, “Honey, whatever you want to do, that’s fine with me. You know that.” It meant SO much to me to hear that, especially since he didn’t ask why first. When I did tell him why, he reassured me that while it was probably just a bad run of luck and NOT me, he understood how I could feel that way.

Due to our schedule these next few weeks, we won’t have any opportunities to play or go to parties, so we’ll end up with a break anyway. This will give us time to re-evaluate what we want to do. And we’ll get a break from it all when we’re on vacation, which will be good for us, too.

=)