A couple months ago I had an obligation at the same time we had an invite from friends. I couldn't participate in but wanted my husband to enjoy his evening. It took a bit for him to convince himself to go through with it and said it was an awkward feeling not having me by his side but it went well. I loved to hear about his night when I returned. He hasn't expressed wanting to do so again but then the situation hasn't presented itself.

Tonight the situation is reversed. We have several of our good friends going to a party where they all want us to be there but he has an obligation he can't get out of. He told me if I wanted to go that he felt good about that for as long as I give the juicy details.

I've played as a single female in an FMF a couple in past so that isn't a new experience for me but this is a new experience for us as a couple. This time it feels a little different and for some reason I feel a bit nervous and can't really put my finger on it. It's a party I've been to a couple times before with about a 100 couples. I'll know at least 5 of the couples very well, and I know the owners and staff very well. I'll be riding in and sharing a room our closest friends (we're not poly but those true friends in and out of the bedroom). They've been in the lifestyle 8+ years and know what it's all about so I know they will respect my space and be supportive of whatever (or whoever lol) I chose to do.

Maybe my nervousness is like the first time you ever swing. You never know how you'll really feel until the time is here so while I know my husband is 100% supportive and eager for me to have a good time but it feels a little weird having him left out. We truly have a good time together

This isn't something I want to make a regular habit of but it does feel good to seize a special opportunity.

Side note: I have this secret fantasy that all 5 of my favorite couples end up in the same room together but I doubt there is that much compatibility amung the 10 of them. Oh well