The only thing right now that Kitten is thinking of at times is all the times that we thought about going home for the weekend to see everybody and put it off because we "didn't feel like it that weekend" or the times she thought "i'll call her tomorrow" or "I'll send her and email. The only thing I'm thinking is "if I would have just said come on babe, lets go see everybody instead of ok, if you don't feel like it we won't go.."

Coming home this afternoon Kitten told me "i'm envious of you right now." when I asked her "why?" she said "because your mother is still alive, and I'll never see mine again..." I know she didn't mean that in a mean way. I also know that she has just began to grieve at this point. The full effect will not hit her untill a few days from now and the hardest part is yet to come. We cleaned out her moms fridge and freezer this weekend, however we still have clothes and everything else to pack up. That is going to be one of the toughest things that I or Kitten ever do when we decide to tackle that project.

I guess when i get upset i ramble at times, but that is what this blog is for i guess. and at times if I have a point to make about something I will try and relate a little bit of my life and how i feel to it. I guess the point of this blog is to not assume that people are always going to be there. If you love somebody, let them know it. Everyday. Especially those closest to you. To my best friend Gator and his lovely wife, thank you. Both of you. We love you guys.