The Third Wheel (The Unicorn)

[PSULioness 839]

Life has many paths with some roads leading back to the starting line. 
Eight years ago I spent a night with a college friend and her boyfriend after a snowstorm at a football game. Plenty has happened to me since that night, engagement, learning some friends were swingers, getting married, an open marriage, a pregnancy that was terminated, a divorce, an abusive relationship and lots and lots of therapy. My life returned to what some call normal, dating men and occasional women. 
That original friend married, not the boyfriend I knew, had disappeared from my life and now reemerged. Not the scene of the crime she called and asked if I wanted to join her and her husband to the football game at our school. Reluctant to be “used” and anxious to feel free, I  agreed. 
I found out another sorority sister my ex and I had played with had also married, a guy I never met, were also going to the game. 
The hardest part was reliving my last few years, I only gave an abbreviated retelling. With that all told both of the husbands couldn’t have been sweeter to me. 

[bbarnsworth 2,637]

Thank you for still being around. You're part of our community, and we would sorely miss you. We're all in your corner, and cheering for you!

[Half MT 217]

It’s great to have friends you can trust. 

[cplnluv1 871]

Looks like you are getting back to enjoying life. You are not the first woman to divorce or to be abused. You are fortunate to have good friends who support you. 
My advice is to be honest with your therapist, what happened to you is not your fault and nothing to be ashamed with. Your history is a learning experience teaching you what to be aware of in future relationships. 
You are young and have plenty of life ahead of you, enjoy it for you not for what others want. 

[GoldCoCouple 4,065]

We will continue to be here for you and anyone else looking for help. Just happy to see that you found your way back here. You were missed...

[Rock n Tits 186]

We enjoy threesomes either way she like men and ladies I enjoy just watching sometimes just jacking off watching her be pleased properly. With men Or ladies 

[couplers 4,614]

On 10/7/2024 at 1:53 PM, PSULioness said:

My life returned to what some call normal, dating men and occasional women. 

The above sentence struck a chord in me.  Of all the developments in my sexual journey, the most surprising and powerful was discovering my Lesbian side.  Especially as we women had children together, the bond became so strong among us.

[PSULioness 839]

On 10/12/2024 at 7:57 AM, couplers said:

The above sentence struck a chord in me.  Of all the developments in my sexual journey, the most surprising and powerful was discovering my Lesbian side.  Especially as we women had children together, the bond became so strong among us.

I would call it Lesbian before I experienced it and when I did it was hard to accept that I enjoyed. After many same sex experiences I now call it sex just like sex with a man. Other than the obvious act I can only have with a man the sex with a woman is just as fulfilling. 

[PSULioness 839]

On 10/11/2024 at 3:30 PM, GoldCoCouple said:

We will continue to be here for you and anyone else looking for help. Just happy to see that you found your way back here. You were missed...

Thank you for kind words. I never left “here”, I would check in from time to time holding off posting. Without contributing I was able to read posts from a different perspective wondering what was real and what was fantasy. I am pretty sure I know. 
There are a number of members who have given me support, I have even allowed myself to open up to one very special couple. Several years ago we met them, they knew about my original problem and gave me full support. I just found it easier to talk to an older woman, about 20 years older telling her things I had a hard time explaining to my friends. 
It is her who said I should come back here to post my thoughts. She understands that I need to clear my head without direct contact, a healthy way to express my thoughts even though I do see a professional. I am finally feeling healthy enough to regain my life and enjoy that life again. 
Thank you for your support. 

[ROCKlandCpl 451]

On 10/13/2024 at 9:59 PM, PSULioness said:

It is her who said I should come back here to post my thoughts. She understands that I need to clear my head without direct contact, a healthy way to express my thoughts even though I do see a professional. I am finally feeling healthy enough to regain my life and enjoy that life again. 
Thank you for your support. 

Clearing your mind of negativity is very cathartic. Positive thoughts and meditation also helps. I have a kalyana mitta who has been a guide and facilitator for me.