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So yeah I need some advice from you all we have been talking about trying for years and we finally after talking quite a bit about decided to join a local swingersboard.

We mostly just chatted with people to begin with and the night was actually pretty normal for the most part like any other night out really.

But then we met a couple really nice both me and my husband liked them anyways we chatted for quite awhile and we really hit it off.

Me and my husband decided to speak privately for a minute and I asked my husband if he liked her and he said yes she is a very attractive woman and we ended up going with them to a private room.

I slept with her husband and it was basiclly a swap I enjoyed myself immensly he was very well endowed and it actually hurt me in the beginning but he was very gentle and did not go crazy.

But then after maybe 10 minutes I saw my husband getting really uncomfortable and he put his clothes back on and excused himself.

I of course put my clothes on and followed my husband outside and he just said I can't do this he was shaking, I said okay you don't have to we can go right now.

He asked me to drive he did not say a word on the 40 minute drive home he was just staring blankely.

He has become completely withdrawn he can barely look me in the eye anymore and I feel so lost he looks like he is in such pain and I have no idea what to do he barely talks to me anymore.

So need some advice because I feel I have royally messed up and I feel terrible seeing him like this, I was the one who brought up swinging and talked him into it.



 

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He needs your love and support, obviously no swinging and a little professional counseling. 

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2 minutes ago, njbm said:

He needs your love and support, obviously no swinging and a little professional counseling. 

Yeah I have tried telling him that I love him and begged him to please talk to me but he went to this brothers yesterday and when he came home late today I saw him talking to his brother when his brother dropped him off, he seemed normal until he saw me and the same hurt and sad expression appeared on his face again ,I felt like I was breaking his world all over again.

I just feel like a walking trigger for him and feel like I am just mentally torturing him at this point.

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1 hour ago, bbarnsworth said:

Get back to being just the two of you, and stay with that.

1 hour ago, bbarnsworth said:

 

Of course swinging is off the table I don't care if I never do it again to be honest it was not worth this.

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2 hours ago, wife86 said:

I was the one who brought up swinging and talked him into it.

How exactly did you talk him into it? He’s a grown-up, isn’t he? He could have said “no” at any point prior to your physical encounter with this other couple … or even prior to meeting them. I agree with the other posters that you two need a lot of open, honest communication and maybe professional help. But you didn’t talk him into this … he LET HIMSELF be talked into it! Don’t take on all the guilt.

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You both go to counseling, as soon as possible!  And do not feel embarrassed.  Counselors have heard it all.  And do not hesitate to shop around a bit for a counselor who you both feel comfortable with.  

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13 hours ago, bbarnsworth said:

For some people, swinging is just something that can not work. That's ok. It doesn't make him broken, or somehow less. Get back to being just the two of you, and stay with that. That doesn't mean we don't welcome you here to talk with us! Please do. If you have questions, we'll try our best to answer and help you through.

 

11 hours ago, NC_Seniors said:

How exactly did you talk him into it? He’s a grown-up, isn’t he? He could have said “no” at any point prior to your physical encounter with this other couple … or even prior to meeting them. I agree with the other posters that you two need a lot of open, honest communication and maybe professional help. But you didn’t talk him into this … he LET HIMSELF be talked into it! Don’t take on all the guilt.

 

3 hours ago, oldswinger64 said:

You both go to counseling, as soon as possible!  And do not feel embarrassed.  Counselors have heard it all.  And do not hesitate to shop around a bit for a counselor who you both feel comfortable with.  

He finally decided to talk today and he told me did not blame me for anything but felt he struggled with it and like someone posted here he can't unsee that moment where I was enjoying myself he just keeps getting reminded of it and it's hard for him.

He also did not blame me for it and made the clear several times he has just no idea how to handle it, he then said he is not sure he can be intimate with me again I struggle just sleeping in the same bed as you.

He felt that was unfair towards me and was sorry for it and I suggested counciling he seemed receptive to that, but the fact he flinched when I tried to gentely touch his arm got to me.

He seems terrified of intimacy and sex now like he feels he is not good enough anymore and that could not be further from the truth.

I thank you for your advice and concerns and have no idea what's going to happen next but he seems to be receptive to counciling atleast.

I neve imagined it would get to this point and I am actually worried he will just leave me at this point.

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I'm curious how your relationship was prior to this. You don't have to divulge anything, I'm just typing while I think about your post. His reaction is on the severe side of reactions I've seen and heard about. Were you two married young (i.e. he didn't have much experience with others, you didn't have experience with others)? Does he lack self confidence in general? Are you more outgoing in general? How long have you been married? Ages?

 

I understand his reaction, just not to this extreme. When I was in my early-mid 20's, I likely would have reacted to seeing my SO with someone else in a similar way (I had little confidence in myself, had little sexual experience, SO had one other partner, etc). I would have never agreed to a swap. Had I watched her reaction to another man, one with larger equipment, I would have cowered in shame. I had no confidence in myself and seeing that would have just crushed me. I feel for your husband. Like the others, I'm confused why he would have agreed to a swap. This extreme reaction doesn't sound like it came out of nowhere.

 

This situation needs time and professional help. I think you both should see a counselor separately and then together. This way he can speak freely alone, the counselor would know your perspective while hearing his concerns and together you can build a bridge. I don't see any further swinging in your future. 

 

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51 minutes ago, discreetplay said:

I'm curious how your relationship was prior to this. You don't have to divulge anything, I'm just typing while I think about your post. His reaction is on the severe side of reactions I've seen and heard about. Were you two married young (i.e. he didn't have much experience with others, you didn't have experience with others)? Does he lack self confidence in general? Are you more outgoing in general? How long have you been married? Ages?

 

I understand his reaction, just not to this extreme. When I was in my early-mid 20's, I likely would have reacted to seeing my SO with someone else in a similar way (I had little confidence in myself, had little sexual experience, SO had one other partner, etc). I would have never agreed to a swap. Had I watched her reaction to another man, one with larger equipment, I would have cowered in shame. I had no confidence in myself and seeing that would have just crushed me. I feel for your husband. Like the others, I'm confused why he would have agreed to a swap. This extreme reaction doesn't sound like it came out of nowhere.

 

This situation needs time and professional help. I think you both should see a counselor separately and then together. This way he can speak freely alone, the counselor would know your perspective while hearing his concerns and together you can build a bridge. I don't see any further swinging in your future. 

 

Our marriage is fine we even thought about having kids this year something both me and him really wanted we are both 36 and met when we were 23 married at 25 so going on 11 years soon.

I know his time all the way from high-school college was hard on him and he was a bit shy, but always kind which is why I ended up with him and why I find him attractive I have been with so many assholes.

I also know he struggled with bullying and exclusion for many years and had a rough childhood but instead of being angry at the world he was just kind which is why I love him.

He is not angry with me but I seemed to have triggered a past trauma in him that he seems reluctant to share he seems embarrased by it so I know there is more to this.

And if that's the case I will do whatever it takes to help him get through it, it's painful for me to see him like this.

I never meant for this to happen and I am not some evil person who wanted to break him.

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Swinging requires almost total trust in your partner. You need to reaffirm that while it was fun, it will never be as good as what the two of you have. Also, let him know that you don't want to do it again (not you won't do it again because he didn't enjoy it, but that you aren't interested in doing it again). In hind sight, you probably should have taken smaller steps, but it's too late for that now. Just keep letting him know that you love him and while it was something that you (both) wanted to try, it's over and done with. He is all that you need and want. Counseling would be a good thing if he is willing since there is probably more here than what any of us are seeing. Good luck and let us know how things are going.

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2 hours ago, discreetplay said:

 

 

This situation needs time and professional help. I think you both should see a counselor separately and then together. This way he can speak freely alone, the counselor would know your perspective while hearing his concerns and together you can build a bridge. I don't see any further swinging in your future. 

 

This is pretty good advice given your response (below). 

 

1 hour ago, wife86 said:

I seemed to have triggered a past trauma in him that he seems reluctant to share he seems embarrased by it so I know there is more to this.

 

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There are counselors who have experience in ethical non monogamy (ENM) who can be of particular help. Some traditional counselor may balk and perhaps be too judgemental of the swinging topic.

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Thank you all I just needed ask someone who is in the lifestyle for advice I was completely at a loss and I hope in time we can get passed this.

 

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20 minutes ago, Fitlakecouple said:

There are counselors who have experience in ethical non monogamy (ENM) who can be of particular help. Some traditional counselor may balk and perhaps be too judgemental of the swinging topic.

Yes, try to find a counselor who will focus on the issue and not the choices. 

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Sorry you both are going through this :(  You've gotten a lot of great advice above that I totally agree with so I won't try to rehash what others have said.

 

The first thing that entered my mind when reading your post was "time heals all wounds."  I don't mean to throw that old cliche out there to minimize what you both are going through right now.  Rather, as trying to be a voice of optimism since it's easy to get really down in these situations and think things are hopeless.  I don't think things are hopeless, it just feels that way right now since everything is still so raw.  Once time dulls that raw edge a bit, things will start to look a little better and you can figure out how to move forward together.  In fact, I think that is already happening since he was ready to talk some now where before he wasn't, so that's good.

 

Wishing the best of luck to the both of you as you work through this. Swinging or no swinging, please stick around the site as long as you like, Hopefully we have something to offer you but I think you have a lot to offer us too.  Swinging is not always one endless party, there can be a dark side too, so stories like yours are important.

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20 hours ago, cplnuswing said:

Sorry you both are going through this :(  You've gotten a lot of great advice above that I totally agree with so I won't try to rehash what others have said.

 

The first thing that entered my mind when reading your post was "time heals all wounds."  I don't mean to throw that old cliche out there to minimize what you both are going through right now.  Rather, as trying to be a voice of optimism since it's easy to get really down in these situations and think things are hopeless.  I don't think things are hopeless, it just feels that way right now since everything is still so raw.  Once time dulls that raw edge a bit, things will start to look a little better and you can figure out how to move forward together.  In fact, I think that is already happening since he was ready to talk some now where before he wasn't, so that's good.

 

Wishing the best of luck to the both of you as you work through this. Swinging or no swinging, please stick around the site as long as you like, Hopefully we have something to offer you but I think you have a lot to offer us too.  Swinging is not always one endless party, there can be a dark side too, so stories like yours are important.

He decided to tell me about some things he had repressed for many years one incident in particular that completely ruined his sexual confidence in his teens and he was terrified of dating and intimacy until he met me.

Had I known that I never would have suggested it but he made it clear I did nothing wrong and does not blame me he kept repeating that,  he thought he had a handle on it but seeing me with that man made him feel just the same way as he did back then and just wanted to run away.

That's why he went to his brother that day he just needed to do a time out and get his emotions in check and I understand that now knowing what he went through what happened to him was just cruel.

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Glad to hear the communication has opened up for you two!  Hope this leads to you guys getting back on track with each other.  Good luck.

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3 hours ago, wife86 said:

He decided to tell me about some things he had repressed for many years one incident in particular that completely ruined his sexual confidence in his teens and he was terrified of dating and intimacy until he met me.

Had I known that I never would have suggested it but he made it clear I did nothing wrong and does not blame me he kept repeating that,  he thought he had a handle on it but seeing me with that man made him feel just the same way as he did back then and just wanted to run away.

That's why he went to his brother that day he just needed to do a time out and get his emotions in check and I understand that now knowing what he went through what happened to him was just cruel.

 

You know what? This is actually good news. He has opened up something very deep inside of him, a place where very, very few have ever been. He trusts you. He trusts you very deeply or he wouldn't be telling you this.

 

Step by step. Build on it. If this is going where I think it might be going, he's going to love you even more deeply than before this.

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15 hours ago, bbarnsworth said:

 

You know what? This is actually good news. He has opened up something very deep inside of him, a place where very, very few have ever been. He trusts you. He trusts you very deeply or he wouldn't be telling you this.

 

Step by step. Build on it. If this is going where I think it might be going, he's going to love you even more deeply than before this.

I hope so because I feel I have poked a wound without me knowing that never really healed and he has become insecure about us having kids which I understand given his state of mind right now.

I am worried that he may decide that he can't deal with it and just leave me since he still seems anxious around me but we are talking now so hopefully we can get through this.

It's just hard wanting to reassaure him and wanna comfort him and he pulls away when I get to close he  flinched again not much only a little when I touched his shoulder today.

But I am not giving up on him I just hope he does not give up on me

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7 hours ago, wife86 said:

But I am not giving up on him I just hope he does not give up on me

 

This is going to take some time. But, he did let you in. That's very hopeful.

 

A suggestion: Years ago, I took an intimacy class with my girlfriend at the time. This was about emotional intimacy in a relationship. A ground rule of the class was that you could not say anything...to anyone in the class, but especially your partner...that could be construed as judgmental or negative. Such comments cause (what we now call) micro aggressions. They reduce trust, reduce intimacy. Whatever your husband says to you, don't say anything judgmental or negative. Just allow it to be spoken, take it on board, response verbally and physically in a positive, accepting way. He has a deep, deep wound. You can help heal it, but he has to keep on trusting you to do so.

 

Keep at it. We're all rooting for you!

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Hello There, I did hesitate before I write to you but I'm the male half of couple and one day I was in the same situation as your husband and I did react somehow just like him!!!

 

Let me explain to you how I felt maybe you will understand how to deal with situation. We met this lovely couple and things was going very well both having fun and enjoying our time but as some did explain to you seening your Mrs having fun with someone else for the 1st time it has it's effect on some men for the first time but when I saw my wife getting the same pleasure I'm giving her ( even better) I felt threatened felt unsecured felt like OMG she can do this!!! As much as I was enjoying the company of the other guy wife which she was doing her best to keep me occupied, I didn't see all her efforts I've only seen my Mrs opening her legs for another man and I did forget all the times we did wait for this to happen and I just simply stopped and left just like your husband did! 

 

Wouldn't deny it took me time to understand but you need to make him feel your heart fully with him and will always be, you will need him to feel he is the main man in your life and no one can take over his place, make him understand that your climax happen even when you play with your self and you wouldn't need another man to make you happy cause he is the only one can do but there lots of things can make any human been climax and do not forget to give him what he love the most ( lots of wild sex the way he likes it ) during this recovery time and he should be fine after little while and I can tell you he will be the one who organise it after this time all the best🤞 

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Reclamation sex is one of the hottest parts of the lifestyle, (so I'm told, we're still rookies) and it seems like you two need that.  I'm not sure how since he flinches when you initiate.  But don't give up.

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I would suspect that your husband is feeling very vulnerable and perhaps hurt at this point. He may not have been ready to see you

enjoy another man. Make sure that he knows that he is your husband and you are his wife, and that this has not changed that. 

Take the time to heal, and help him to work through this, ensuring that he knows that you are not going anywhere and that 

your love and respect for him has not diminished but only grown. We wish you a positive outcome!

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On 5/10/2022 at 5:42 PM, bbarnsworth said:

Wife86, I'm sorry the night turned out so poorly.

 

There are potential explanations for your husband's reaction, but it's hard to know what's going on without being able to speak with him. You're facing the same hurdle of course.

 

Wild guesses; your husband didn't expect you to have as good of a time as you did. He might feel like he's lost something with you, and doesn't feel like he can ever please you again the way you were. There might be some deep seated jealousy exposed within himself that even he didn't know about beforehand. It might be that now that he's seen you having sex with someone else, he can't unsee it..and it keeps flashing back in his mind, like a small form of PTSD.

 

I would strongly consider counseling to help work through this. He might not want to go, but at least have him go with you. This has to be talked out. It might take time, even a lot of time, but patience is key.

 

For some people, swinging is just something that can not work. That's ok. It doesn't make him broken, or somehow less. Get back to being just the two of you, and stay with that. That doesn't mean we don't welcome you here to talk with us! Please do. If you have questions, we'll try our best to answer and help you through.

Since you don’t know it may have been performance issue

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On 5/16/2022 at 7:34 PM, Married-adventure said:

Hello There, I did hesitate before I write to you but I'm the male half of couple and one day I was in the same situation as your husband and I did react somehow just like him!!!

 

Let me explain to you how I felt maybe you will understand how to deal with situation. We met this lovely couple and things was going very well both having fun and enjoying our time but as some did explain to you seening your Mrs having fun with someone else for the 1st time it has it's effect on some men for the first time but when I saw my wife getting the same pleasure I'm giving her ( even better) I felt threatened felt unsecured felt like OMG she can do this!!! As much as I was enjoying the company of the other guy wife which she was doing her best to keep me occupied, I didn't see all her efforts I've only seen my Mrs opening her legs for another man and I did forget all the times we did wait for this to happen and I just simply stopped and left just like your husband did! 

 

Wouldn't deny it took me time to understand but you need to make him feel your heart fully with him and will always be, you will need him to feel he is the main man in your life and no one can take over his place, make him understand that your climax happen even when you play with your self and you wouldn't need another man to make you happy cause he is the only one can do but there lots of things can make any human been climax and do not forget to give him what he love the most ( lots of wild sex the way he likes it ) during this recovery time and he should be fine after little while and I can tell you he will be the one who organise it after this time all the best🤞 

Yeah that's not gonna happen I think my marriage is about to come to an end.

Me and my husband have talked some more and I believed things were moving forward and was so happy and he opened up to me about things he had struggled with.

But without blaming me he seems to want to take some time apart and I honestly was surprised because I honestly believed I was getting through to him.

He basiclly said that he was open to counseling but he tried to move past the images in his head and he just can't do it and it destroying him.

He felt that there was nothing I could do and it was unfair of him to expect anything more than I already had done according to him.

Him and I have not slept in the same bed since this happened and he sleeps in the guest room and he tried to sleep in the same bed as me but when I woke up I found him sleeping in the guest room again.

He said he just could not sleep if he did not go to the guest room and he needed to sleep because of his job.

So yeah not the ending many where hoping for but I think my marriage is coming to an end.


 

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Hopefully, you can go to counseling. Something is off with his perspective. This event should be a hiccup, not a marriage ender. Someone else may have to bring your husband to arrive at that conclusion. 

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I concur with njbm.

 

Ok, this was a deeply traumatic event for him. Ok, there's been lasting repercussions. Ok, he's having a very difficult time getting the images out of his head. All of that is understandable. There's recognition there is a serious problem.

 

To me, what is not understandable is being unwilling to do anything about it. Allowing one consensual incident like this destroy a marriage is unconscionable. That should be the very, very, very last thing to consider. Get him to counseling. If he's not open to counseling, and absolutely refuses to go, ...I don't know how to say this without coming off as highly critical...the burden is squarely on his shoulders, and it is perhaps fortunate you haven't had kids with him.

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10 hours ago, wife86 said:

Yeah that's not gonna happen I think my marriage is about to come to an end.

Me and my husband have talked some more and I believed things were moving forward and was so happy and he opened up to me about things he had struggled with.

But without blaming me he seems to want to take some time apart and I honestly was surprised because I honestly believed I was getting through to him.

He basiclly said that he was open to counseling but he tried to move past the images in his head and he just can't do it and it destroying him.

He felt that there was nothing I could do and it was unfair of him to expect anything more than I already had done according to him.

Him and I have not slept in the same bed since this happened and he sleeps in the guest room and he tried to sleep in the same bed as me but when I woke up I found him sleeping in the guest room again.

He said he just could not sleep if he did not go to the guest room and he needed to sleep because of his job.

So yeah not the ending many where hoping for but I think my marriage is coming to an end.


 

It's unfortunate things have continued to sour. You two dove headlong into the deep water when you weren't even close to being ready, and now your relationship is floundering under the waves. I hope the novices are paying attention to this thread, because there is an important lesson to be learned from your experiences.

 

Concerning your posts, you may not have noticed the irregularities, inconsistencies, and contradictions. It may be helpful for them to be pointed out to you: You state, for example, your husband is "... basically open to counseling..."  is not "blaming me (you)... " and simply "... wants to take some time apart." Then, you finish by declaring your marriage "... is coming to an end."  Those statements do not add up. At this point, it is not clear if your husband has given up the relationship... or you have?

 

Lastly, do your relationship a BIG favor and completely ignore the armchair, pretend "therapists" who are laying all the blame at your husband's feet. That perspective is both wrongheaded and destructive. It takes two to tango. Your husband's feelings and actions are not happening in a vacuum and are not separate from yours. You both foolishly decided to jump into swinging without having even a basic appreciation for the risks to your relationship. And you both are responsible for the consequences to your relationship.

 

If either, or both, of you have decided to toss in the towel, nothing anyone is going to say that is going to change the trajectory. On the other hand, if both of you are serious about getting some help, you may be able to salvage the relationship. In fact, with immediate interventive, professional counseling, this crisis may eventually lead you to have a stronger relationship (I know, that seems improbable at this juncture but, I assure you, it can happen.)

 

Now, pick up the phone and schedule a visit with a marriage counselor. The sooner the better. 

 

And good luck.

 

 

 

 

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3 hours ago, bbarnsworth said:

Get him to counseling. If he's not open to counseling, and absolutely refuses to go, ...I don't know how to say this without coming off as highly critical...the burden is squarely on his shoulders, and it is perhaps fortunate you haven't had kids with him.

 

4 minutes ago, AndrewandAnn said:

Now, pick up the phone and schedule a visit with a marriage counselor. The sooner the better. 

He has agreed to counceling and we have found one and we are going to see one that's why him saying we need some "time apart" surprised me but we are gonna talk to somebody.

And yes I know it sound contradictory and I sure as hell don't want him to go but I feel like he has checked out in a way and it seems easier for him to do so.

 

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We agree that this isn't a marriage ender at this time. Just don't give up. If you start thinking that it is over, then it probably will end up being over. He has asked for time apart, so give him time alone. This doesn't mean that either of you are moving out, just taking time apart. Let him have the guest room and some space. Get into some counseling and start working on whatever  the issues are, but let him know that you are choosing him, staying with him while you together work through the issues. It doesn't matter whose at 'fault' here, just that you stay a team and he knows that you are there for him. Love, trust and communication...let him know that he has all three and then let him come to you. When is your first appointment? 

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1 hour ago, wife86 said:

 

He has agreed to counceling and we have found one and we are going to see one that's why him saying we need some "time apart" surprised me but we are gonna talk to somebody.

And yes I know it sound contradictory and I sure as hell don't want him to go but I feel like he has checked out in a way and it seems easier for him to do so.

 

That's the right move. I'm glad to see you two taking this concrete step towards getting things back on track.

 

A few things to add:

 

When a person exhibits the kinds of behaviors (you are describing) being displayed by your husband, it's important for you to realize they are not necessarily "directed" towards you. Generally, when a person closes himself off (i.e., asks for space; emotionally and physically withdraws; becomes uncommunicative, etc.) due to some kind of traumatic event, it is because he feels emotionally overwhelmed. In this moment of extreme vulnerability and confusion, the last thing he needs or wants from you is to be constantly requested to engage, engage, engage. And you are only making matters worse by incorrectly interpreting his withdrawal as "giving up" on the relationship--and, if you've made the mistake of actually verbalizing this to him, it only serves to make him more withdrawn and undermines his trust. "Do this or it means you don't want to stay married..." and similar ultimatums are a recipe for a failed relationship.

 

The better course to follow? Give him the space he is requesting and calmly, compassionately, and lovingly reassure him that, when he is ready to discuss his feelings, you will be there for him. And, until he's ready to talk things out, you're going to honor his wishes and give him the space and time he needs to process his feelings. Notice I included time, not just space. That you were quickly able to emotionally process this, doesn't mean he has the same capacity. And he's not "wrong" for needing more time and space. He is who he is. He must have some pretty great qualities, otherwise you wouldn't have married him!

 

Have you noticed your comments are very much focused on your husband? In couples therapy, there is a saying that goes, "Just worry about keeping clean your own side of the street. And let him worry about his." Stop thinking this is "his problem" and start thing this is "our problem". Stop focusing on his behavior and assigning all of your insecurities to it, "Why is he doing this to me? This must mean he wants out of the relationship" and so on. Instead, ask yourself what you can do to help the relationship get back on track? Are you creating the safe emotional space for him to feel secure enough to communicate when he's ready? Or, does he feel you are pushy, judgmental, dismissive of his feelings, condescending, or that you blame him for all or most of what went wrong? Maybe you've done none of these things. Or, maybe you have done all of them? The important point is to engage yourself in being part of the solution and take ownership for your role, and stop worrying about his role. Focus on controlling the only person in this relationship you can: YOU.

 

Lastly, it would be wise of you take advantage of the "time out" in a positive way and take care of yourself. Instead of resisting his desire for time and space, accept it, and take this opportunity to calm your own agitated feelings and soothe your own emotional hurt. Exercise, get outdoors, stay hydrated, get adequate sleep, meditate, read positive books, listen to uplifting music/podcasts, and so on. These things will help reduce your overall level of stress and give you a better physical foundation and better emotional perspective from which to address things. 

 

 

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wife86 - I wish you the very best however this ends.

 

But, it occurred to me that the real issue is whether your husband wants to give up on himself. The swinging activity triggered a long buried and difficult emotional experience for him. The wound is open, it's bleeding and festering. The best action now is for him to HEAL it. It's time for him to move forward and become the full person he wants to be. To realize his full potential which will allow him to be fully engaged in your relationship, the life of your children when they arrive and with himself.

 

And he's so fortunate to have you there to help him. To love him, the hold him, to offer patience and non-judgemental support.

 

The swinging has offered him an opportunity to deal with his buried challenges. I truly believe there is a silver lining here if he wants to embrace it, and from what I've read, he'd be crazy to blow up the two of you instead.

 

Best to you both.

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On 5/11/2022 at 8:05 AM, wife86 said:

he can't unsee that moment where I was enjoying myself he just keeps getting reminded of it and it's hard for him.

I found this comment interesting because for all of us in our poly family (hubby, Red, Lora, Clair and me) it is the total opposite.  We are happy, satisfied, and proud when the one we love has great sex with someone else in the family, or even someone outside the family.  And the one receiving the great sex is grateful and gives the credit to the person(s) who love us, not the outside sex partner.

 

It wouldn't be wise at this point for you to tell your husband that you had an enjoyable time and give him the credit for it.  Rather my amateur, out-there suggestion would be to do what my husband did for me as we became nonmonogamous: he made it clear that I could keep my ex-fiancé as a boyfriend with no expectation of reciprocity on his part.  While I continued having sex with my ex, and a had a short term fling with another guy, he remained monogamous with me.  It made me feel powerful, loved, appreciated.  Perhaps you should offer to let him play while making it clear that you have no desire to do so.  I think it would be a boost for his self-esteem to have a loving wife totally satisfied with him and some pleasure on the side with your knowledge, permission, and encouragement. 

 

(BTW, After two years of his showing me by example what love really is, I just didn't let him, I wanted him to play with other women.  The controlling thing for me was that when the situation was right, I offered my husband to a friend or acquaintance of my choosing, then told my husband what he was to do.)

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23 hours ago, couplers said:

I found this comment interesting because for all of us in our poly family (hubby, Red, Lora, Clair and me) it is the total opposite.  We are happy, satisfied, and proud when the one we love has great sex with someone else in the family, or even someone outside the family.  And the one receiving the great sex is grateful and gives the credit to the person(s) who love us, not the outside sex partner.

 

It wouldn't be wise at this point for you to tell your husband that you had an enjoyable time and give him the credit for it.  Rather my amateur, out-there suggestion would be to do what my husband did for me as we became nonmonogamous: he made it clear that I could keep my ex-fiancé as a boyfriend with no expectation of reciprocity on his part.  While I continued having sex with my ex, and a had a short term fling with another guy, he remained monogamous with me.  It made me feel powerful, loved, appreciated.  Perhaps you should offer to let him play while making it clear that you have no desire to do so.  I think it would be a boost for his self-esteem to have a loving wife totally satisfied with him and some pleasure on the side with your knowledge, permission, and encouragement. 

 

(BTW, After two years of his showing me by example what love really is, I just didn't let him, I wanted him to play with other women.  The controlling thing for me was that when the situation was right, I offered my husband to a friend or acquaintance of my choosing, then told my husband what he was to do.)

Not gonna repeat my mistake by dragging him into another lifestyle he is not comfortable and also the big disclaimer is that if I allow it and he ends up finding nobody then that could make the situation ten times worse, the big disclaimer on this lifestyle is that it's always easier for us who are women to find someone to have fun with than the guys.

I experimented from when I was 18 to 22 and had no problem at all finding guys but the same is not really true in reverse when it comes to guys.

And my husband is a bit shy and introverted he had only been with two women before me and one of those experiences lead to a trauma that caused all of this.

I would never deny him if he asked me but I am just wondering if he does try to find someone outside of our marriage, but then ends up finding nobody and feel even worse because of it.

I honestly feel if that happened it would break him completely I just don't think he is wired for that kind of relationship.

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On 5/19/2022 at 6:13 PM, AndrewandAnn said:

That's the right move. I'm glad to see you two taking this concrete step towards getting things back on track.

 

A few things to add:

 

When a person exhibits the kinds of behaviors (you are describing) being displayed by your husband, it's important for you to realize they are not necessarily "directed" towards you. Generally, when a person closes himself off (i.e., asks for space; emotionally and physically withdraws; becomes uncommunicative, etc.) due to some kind of traumatic event, it is because he feels emotionally overwhelmed. In this moment of extreme vulnerability and confusion, the last thing he needs or wants from you is to be constantly requested to engage, engage, engage. And you are only making matters worse by incorrectly interpreting his withdrawal as "giving up" on the relationship--and, if you've made the mistake of actually verbalizing this to him, it only serves to make him more withdrawn and undermines his trust. "Do this or it means you don't want to stay married..." and similar ultimatums are a recipe for a failed relationship.

 

The better course to follow? Give him the space he is requesting and calmly, compassionately, and lovingly reassure him that, when he is ready to discuss his feelings, you will be there for him. And, until he's ready to talk things out, you're going to honor his wishes and give him the space and time he needs to process his feelings. Notice I included time, not just space. That you were quickly able to emotionally process this, doesn't mean he has the same capacity. And he's not "wrong" for needing more time and space. He is who he is. He must have some pretty great qualities, otherwise you wouldn't have married him!

 

Have you noticed your comments are very much focused on your husband? In couples therapy, there is a saying that goes, "Just worry about keeping clean your own side of the street. And let him worry about his." Stop thinking this is "his problem" and start thing this is "our problem". Stop focusing on his behavior and assigning all of your insecurities to it, "Why is he doing this to me? This must mean he wants out of the relationship" and so on. Instead, ask yourself what you can do to help the relationship get back on track? Are you creating the safe emotional space for him to feel secure enough to communicate when he's ready? Or, does he feel you are pushy, judgmental, dismissive of his feelings, condescending, or that you blame him for all or most of what went wrong? Maybe you've done none of these things. Or, maybe you have done all of them? The important point is to engage yourself in being part of the solution and take ownership for your role, and stop worrying about his role. Focus on controlling the only person in this relationship you can: YOU.

 

Lastly, it would be wise of you take advantage of the "time out" in a positive way and take care of yourself. Instead of resisting his desire for time and space, accept it, and take this opportunity to calm your own agitated feelings and soothe your own emotional hurt. Exercise, get outdoors, stay hydrated, get adequate sleep, meditate, read positive books, listen to uplifting music/podcasts, and so on. These things will help reduce your overall level of stress and give you a better physical foundation and better emotional perspective from which to address things. 

 

 

 

On 5/19/2022 at 8:51 PM, lovefest04 said:

wife86 - I wish you the very best however this ends.

 

But, it occurred to me that the real issue is whether your husband wants to give up on himself. The swinging activity triggered a long buried and difficult emotional experience for him. The wound is open, it's bleeding and festering. The best action now is for him to HEAL it. It's time for him to move forward and become the full person he wants to be. To realize his full potential which will allow him to be fully engaged in your relationship, the life of your children when they arrive and with himself.

 

And he's so fortunate to have you there to help him. To love him, the hold him, to offer patience and non-judgemental support.

 

The swinging has offered him an opportunity to deal with his buried challenges. I truly believe there is a silver lining here if he wants to embrace it, and from what I've read, he'd be crazy to blow up the two of you instead.

 

Best to you both.

Thank you and yes I have given him space but his time out now for him is deciding to move to his brother for awhile he has been living there for a week now and we did go to a councilor a sex positive one, but that I feel only made things worse since she seemed to take my side too much and sort of belittled how he was feeling.

I honestly was shocked at how she put everything on him and he must have felt pushed up against a wall which is precisely what I tried to avoid, but he made the descision to move out a day after that.

My husbands family and my family have been asking questions and are wondering what is going on and have speculated that I have cheated on him, my husband made it clear that has not happened and has defended me.


But yeah things have gotten difficult he has moved out and we have spoken maybe twice since he left and he has no desire to go back to the councilor again.

So yeah alone in the house trying to stay positive but it feels like he has just checked out at this point.
 

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On 6/6/2022 at 2:40 PM, wife86 said:

 

Thank you and yes I have given him space but his time out now for him is deciding to move to his brother for awhile he has been living there for a week now and we did go to a councilor a sex positive one, but that I feel only made things worse since she seemed to take my side too much and sort of belittled how he was feeling.

I honestly was shocked at how she put everything on him and he must have felt pushed up against a wall which is precisely what I tried to avoid, but he made the descision to move out a day after that.

My husbands family and my family have been asking questions and are wondering what is going on and have speculated that I have cheated on him, my husband made it clear that has not happened and has defended me.


But yeah things have gotten difficult he has moved out and we have spoken maybe twice since he left and he has no desire to go back to the councilor again.

So yeah alone in the house trying to stay positive but it feels like he has just checked out at this point.
 

An unfortunate situation.

 

And, as you have probably realized, not all counselors are created equal. Like any other profession, you have a broad spectrum of capabilities disbursed among a bell curve. Most counselors are solid. A few are excellent. And a few are incompetent dunces. You had the misfortune of finding the latter.

 

Appears your relationship is going to pay a very high price for your little foray into the deep end of the lifestyle when you were far from being ready.

 

If you're not resigned to the relationship failing, I suggest you keep the lines of communication open and remain positive and engaged to the extent possible. In time, he may come around. But, you'll eventually have to make a judgement call, if you haven't already (frankly, I suspect you have.)

 

Wishing you luck.

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On 5/16/2022 at 1:34 PM, Married-adventure said:

Hello There, I did hesitate before I write to you but I'm the male half of couple and one day I was in the same situation as your husband and I did react somehow just like him!!!

 

Let me explain to you how I felt maybe you will understand how to deal with situation. We met this lovely couple and things was going very well both having fun and enjoying our time but as some did explain to you seening your Mrs having fun with someone else for the 1st time it has it's effect on some men for the first time but when I saw my wife getting the same pleasure I'm giving her ( even better) I felt threatened felt unsecured felt like OMG she can do this!!! As much as I was enjoying the company of the other guy wife which she was doing her best to keep me occupied, I didn't see all her efforts I've only seen my Mrs opening her legs for another man and I did forget all the times we did wait for this to happen and I just simply stopped and left just like your husband did! 

 

Wouldn't deny it took me time to understand but you need to make him feel your heart fully with him and will always be, you will need him to feel he is the main man in your life and no one can take over his place, make him understand that your climax happen even when you play with your self and you wouldn't need another man to make you happy cause he is the only one can do but there lots of things can make any human been climax and do not forget to give him what he love the most ( lots of wild sex the way he likes it ) during this recovery time and he should be fine after little while and I can tell you he will be the one who organise it after this time all the best🤞 

 

So much great insight, input, advice here. Wow what a community! 

 

I agree with so much here and my heart aches for you. 

 

My initial advice to you would have been to show him how amazing he is unusually, sexually, how much he curls your toes, pleasures you, how much you enjoy and love him in your life together, and I would have gotten detailed about it. I've had to do that myself. 

 

But as I read to the last posts - 

 

Dear, your husband needs deep inner healing.  From whom, what source, that is something you will need to research and investigate that works best for the two of you and counseling is the vehicle used but what type. I'd start with the inner healing. I have seen this work for people over the years.

 

 

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On 6/25/2022 at 10:58 AM, herpob said:

 

So much great insight, input, advice here. Wow what a community! 

 

I agree with so much here and my heart aches for you. 

 

My initial advice to you would have been to show him how amazing he is unusually, sexually, how much he curls your toes, pleasures you, how much you enjoy and love him in your life together, and I would have gotten detailed about it. I've had to do that myself. 

 

But as I read to the last posts - 

 

Dear, your husband needs deep inner healing.  From whom, what source, that is something you will need to research and investigate that works best for the two of you and counseling is the vehicle used but what type. I'd start with the inner healing. I have seen this work for people over the years.

 

 

He asked me for a divorce a few days ago and he already contacted a lawyer and told me I needed to do the same thing since we can't have the same lawyer.

Our familes and friends know we are divorcing but not the details of course everyone both my family and his are shocked and I just feel very numb right now.

Dodging questions by our social circle who seem completely baffled by the whole situation, my husband has made it clear I did nothing wrong because I was asked by my best friend if I cheated on him the other day and everyone seems to think I cheated on him.

Even my friends like him a lot and they see that he is hurting and has changed and seem distant and everyone is blaming me without saying anything despite him making it clear I had done nothing wrong.

 

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I don’t think it was the swinging. There is a deeper problem going on. Could he be cheating? 

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I think that you may be right about the swinging being the cause.

It certainly was the trigger event.

 

Somewhere in the back of my mind I am sensing avoidance behaviour.

If he divorces, then he need not face whatever it is that is eating at him?

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Then again I may be far off the mark.

 

I really wish we had  some insight from him.

 I have no reason to disbelief the account given , but it is by its nature incomplete. Therefore these are all just guesses ,with each of us filling in the blanks from our own experiences and observations.

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So sorry to hear this, but as it has been said before: swinging is a relationship magnifying glass...it will make a great relationship even better, but it will show every crack and flaw in a poor relationship. While I believe that swinging was the thing that caused the flaw to be shown, I don't think it was the event that caused the flaw...that has been there for awhile. It is HIS flaw, and not yours, but that doesn't make it any better or hurt any less. You just need to remember that it wasn't you. Wish we could somehow do more for you other than send you our support and hope. Thanks for letting us know what is happening (I was just thinking that I should ask for an update in your situation). We continue to be here for you...

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Sorry to hear this :( For what's it worth, from the very beginning I have thought there was some deeper issue here.  There are plenty of "swinging didn't work out well" stories here, but this one just always seemed to have some hidden layers that no one knows except him, and he may even be repressing them and not fully understand it himself.  A relationship can run seemingly ok on simple inertia for a long time even with a huge problem lurking under the surface.  But when that stressor comes, the problem is let loose.  Usually it's money issues, family conflict, etc.  In this case it was swinging. Whatever the trigger was really doesn't matter, what does matter is there was such a deep underlying problem.  That is what needs to be worked on. Once something like that is set free, just removing the trigger doesn't mean the problem goes back in its box.

 

Wishing you all the best in this difficult time.

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11 hours ago, wife86 said:

He asked me for a divorce a few days ago and he already contacted a lawyer and told me I needed to do the same thing since we can't have the same lawyer.

Our familes and friends know we are divorcing but not the details of course everyone both my family and his are shocked and I just feel very numb right now.

Dodging questions by our social circle who seem completely baffled by the whole situation, my husband has made it clear I did nothing wrong because I was asked by my best friend if I cheated on him the other day and everyone seems to think I cheated on him.

Even my friends like him a lot and they see that he is hurting and has changed and seem distant and everyone is blaming me without saying anything despite him making it clear I had done nothing wrong.
 

 

An unfortunate ending.

 

Contrary to some others, I will not dismiss or rationalize away the adverse role swinging played.

 

Most relationships are not built for the introduction of outside sexual partners. That doesn't make them bad or weak relationships, or inherently flawed. Research shows monogamy is still overwhelmingly the relationship ideal.

 

Did your relationship have some issues? I have no doubt it did. And that would make it just like every other relationship, because ALL relationships have issues.

 

Relationships are delicate things; they exist through a careful balancing act. They can ebb and flow with a certain amount of stress and still stay intact.  But, when we introduce too much stress... relationships can fall apart. We have only to look at the large spike in the rate of divorce during the pandemic to see how this played out in real time.

 

At this stage, I suggest... no, I strongly encourage you to stay in counseling. You will have your own demons to wrestle with and having access to a counselor will prove to be an asset.

 

Best of luck.

 

PS "Everybody" isn't blaming you. That is only your perception. I'm sure you haven't conducted a poll 😉

 

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I guess I've been remiss in not following this thread, but I'm very sorry for what you're dealing with here.

 

I tend to agree with the posters who are suggesting that there is something else going on for him. Perhaps he felt uncomfortable with something else in the marriage, even simply a mid-life crisis type of situation, and thought swinging would patch it up, but instead amplified the problems. I don't think this is really about you.

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Sorry to hear the outcome is not positive for you!  It does sound like there is a lot more going on here then what the swinging caused.  I will say this though as someone who has went through this before.  Divorce is not the end of the world.  In fact it is one of the best things that ever happened to me.  You now have a chance at a new beginning and the journey may just lead to something way better then what you had.  Take care of yourself and good luck on your future wherever it might lead you.  

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      My wife came to me, we started kissing and she told me she loved me and after tonight more than ever in her life. She thanked me for never giving up on her and for continuing to try and convince her into this. She would have never imagined this being so incredible.
       
      Then she turned around and thanked our friend for doing her and for being so kind, gentle and respecting her. She really felt like he was making love to her and not just fucking her, which is the way she always had imagined it.
       
      He told her he was making love to her and had wanted to for a very long time. They kissed some more and my wife mounted him, they kissed and made love for about 10 minutes kissing each other, their faces, neck and ears until they both came again.
       
      Finally we all drifted to sleep with my wife spooning with my best friend. I was so tired I was happy they were enjoying each other. In the middle of the night, or I guess an hour or two later, I woke up to them fucking again.My wife was on top of him again and was riding him like I know she does so well. They were tangled in very passionate kissing and fucking. I just laid there watching his hard cock go in and out of her pussy until they both came.
       
      Since we had been drinking and it was late I just went back to sleep. In the morning I woke up to my wife blowing me and our friend fucking her doggie style. It was fantastic. He came in her again, his 4th load in her, and she climbed on top of me and we fucked like out of control maniacs. She kept on kissing me and telling me she loved and thanking me for letting her fuck him. She then started to speed up and said it was time to claim your pussy back as she started to cum. That did it for me and I sprayed her pussy so hard I felt my cock head was going to blow up. It was such an incredible night we loved every second of it, especially my wife.
       
      After we finished our friend got up and jumped into the shower while we talked and everything was great. We took a shower together while our friend was getting ready and I could tell she was on cloud 9. She had only had sex with me before, and last night and this morning been fucked by another man four times and cum maybe six times. She told me she really enjoyed the experience and was still horny from it, almost like she couldn't control herself. I told her to fuck him some more if she wanted to after our shower. She said she might but didn't want him to think she was a complete slut. I then told her he was our closest friend and I had talked to him about for over a year, he was probably hard again and hoping she would put out again.
       
      She made us breakfast and the three of us talked for a while and we agreed that this was incredible. I asked our friend if he enjoyed himself and he said it was a dream come true for him and that he had never had that chemistry and sexual and emotional connection with anyone. I asked him if he would be willing to do it again sometime? He said anytime, any day.
       
      I looked at my wife and smiled. She blushed, it was so cute to see. I walked over to her and opened her robe and it dropped to the floor. I looked at him and he walked over to her. They kissed and she undressed him.
       
      This time it was hot but also very much just fucking. She got on her hands and knees on the couch and he took her doggie style. They were both cumming pretty quickly. She turned around and cleaned him up good and helped him get dressed. We discussed doing this again but also set some rules. Well, we ended up playing together for nine years. Not every day, but a few times a year until he got married.
       
      They both fell in love with each other during that time and he had even told her while fucking her that he wanted her to have his baby. Of course she wouldn't and didn't but we knew it was a genuine feeling. BTW, my wife gave him a private bachelor party a few weeks before he got married and during the first few years they were married he sneaked out a few times to have our bi-annual 3-some until we moved. We are all still friends and nobody knows our secret. I always tell my wife that they will probably always fuck again, she agrees. He also says the same thing and it has continued to happen. 
       
      Who would have known that was just the beginning of us venturing into the swinging lifestyle. Since then we have enjoyed many other mfm, fmf 3-somes and have also met several couples we played with.
       
    • By MenPoundMyWife
      My wife and I have been married for over 10 years. She is 5'4, about 130lbs, 34F, and very fit. 
       
      We dated for couple of years before getting married. From the very beginning, she was the most sexual woman I had ever met. Soon after we started dating, she started to push me to talk about her former lovers. Slowly, I started to get turned on by the stories and became more and more curious about her past sexual experiences with boyfriends before me. Eventually, we got married, and few years later, she started to throw hints of wanting to raise her score. I quickly got on board and we started to regularly talk about how other men would fuck her and so forth.
       
      Finally, during a trip to Vegas, we decided to visit a sex club and she was very excited, although a little nervous. She wore a new tight black dress with red lingerie underneath. We got to the club and just hung out. She was very uneasy and she said she had never been to a place like this. About 30 minutes in, we were starting to talk about leaving, she suddenly pointed at a slightly older guy and said: "Go bring him here." My dick was hard as a rock. I walked up to the guy and asked if he is interested in my wife, he had been staring at her the entire time. He quickly smiled and said, "Oh yes, let's go."
       
      They shook hands, introduced themselves and we all decided to find the area with beds and more privacy (so to speak). We found a room downstairs that was only enclosed by a curtain. She told me to go and get condoms so she can get to know the guy for a few minutes. When I came back, they were just talking, slowly, she walked up to me and started kissing me. Once I let go, I gestured to the guy to go ahead; he quickly moved in on her. They started making out, he started kissing her all over the place, slowly, she dropped backwards on bed and pulled him on top of herself. 
       
      He lowered her dress and started sucking her big tits. She asked me to join in. We each had a tit in our mouth and we were both fingering her pussy at the same time. Slowly, I moved down and started eating her pussy. She is always fully waxed like a porn star. As soon as I stopped eating her pussy as she came, he went down and started eating it. Slowly, I moved back up and she took my dick in her mouth. 
       
      To our surprise, a crowd gathered and four other men wanted to fuck her. She shook her head but they all watched her get pounded. 
       
      The guy that went in there with us, quickly got naked and tugged at her red thong. She took it off and handed it to me. This whole time, she was playing with my dick, it's about 5.5". The guy was much larger, about 7". She looked at it and winked at me. She told him she likes it rough.
       
      He had it fully up and moved close to her pussy. She stared into my eyes, grabbed his dick and guided it to rub her pussy. He took his clue and shoved it in. She reminded him to not be gentle. He obliged and fucked her like a whore. She begged for more by saying, "Oh yeah, fuck me, fuck me hard...look babe, he is fucking me so good, he is so big, look, he is fucking your wife right in front of you....oh yeah, fuck me." About four other guys and a couple were now watching her get fucked. I asked her if I should tell them to leave, she said no, she likes it. She slowly turned to them so they can get the full view of a dick in her pussy while she was playing with mine. 
       
      Once the guy got done, she said, "Okay honey, this was awesome," and kissed me multiple times thanking me for a great experience. She said she wanted to stay for a few before we walked out. She wanted to walk around and be noticed as the woman who had just been fucked, since rest of the crowd was just hanging out.
       
      We cannot wait to do it again.  
       
    • By Skhan
      It's a long ride on your way to your first threesome.  No matter if you are driving 2 hours or 2 minutes, it seems like you are forever getting there.

      You don't know if the thoughts in your mind or the blood in your cock will explode first.
       
      You have nothing to go on but a few grainy photos; usually one, maybe two if you are lucky.  And the eyes... the eyes are always blotted out in those photos. No one wants to be recognized by friends or family.  They never realize that friends or family would have to be swinging to see those grainy photos in the swinger magazines.  Those "dirty" magazines hidden in the back of the combination book store/record shop.
       
      Yes, you were nervous going to the checkout with those swinger mags, purchasing some mediocre cd or magazine to hide from the other patrons the depravity of the sex acts dominating your thoughts.  The relief you feel when you are sitting in your car with your treasure.  The thrill of looking through the candidates, sifting through the obese or obnoxious looking couples to find that perfect gem, the one couple that displays "couple or single male wanted."  You don't focus on the husbands, just the wives to see if they are hot.  Hell, they don't have to be hot, just the average to middling females who aren't looking for 10 inch cocks.  They nearly all ask for 10 inch cocks for a 7 inch cock holster.  You curse your parents for the mediocrity of your birth right.
       
      You find a few candidates. You mail to the reference number on the photo c/o the magazine forwarding service, enclose your Polaroids....and wait.  You buy an answering machine...and wait.  You check your messages for two weeks...and wait.  You wait and you masturbate to the thoughts of what you want to happen.  The answer doesn't come by phone, but by mail.  The couple writes and expresses interest.  Apparently your cock pick wasn't all that mediocre, or it's your young flesh she desires more than the cervix pounding from the other bullish candidates.  
       
      They send photos. Colored ones. Kodachrome.
       
      They give you a phone number. A city two hours away. They are a better than average couple.  No heavy weights. He is bi, she is straight. Your are 24.  They are 33 and 35.  You haven't tried bisexuality before, but your heart is racing now, anticipating something new, something erotic...your first threesome.
       
      You call the number. The wife answers and you give them the phony last name that you made up on the letter, and they give you the phony last name that they made up.  It's part of the game.   You banter nervously. They ask questions. You ask questions.  "What do you enjoy?"  "Do you like anal?"  "Do you like cum in your mouth?"  It doesn't matter.  If they said that they were going to cut your throat afterward, you would still go.  You are hooked. You set up a weekend meet at a motel at their location. King-size bed. Hard to explain to the motel clerk why you are asking for a king-size bed.  They don't ask. They've seen it all.
       
      The husband picks you up at the motel. Nice guy. Personable. Not his first rodeo. He drives you to their place, which is a surprise, but you are so nervous that you don't remember the address or how to get there. You go in. You meet the wife and son. She doesn't disappoint.  She is a looker. The teenage son is off to a friend's place and you are just someone going to a party with his parents. He doesn't know that you will be soon fucking his mother.  After the son leaves, they show you photos of their past swinging adventures.  If you had doubts, then now you are sure that this isn't their first rodeo.  Your cock or your mind. Both are about to explode.
       
      They follow you back to the hotel room that you rented.  Locked door, "Do not Disturb" sign.
       
      She kisses her husband and it starts. The disrobing. You are nervous. What to do first. Follow their lead and try not to appear overbearing or demanding.  She's on the bed, and he dives into a mouthful of vaginal bliss. You nervously start kissing her, massaging her breast, kissing her nipples.  Then you get on your knees and present your mediocre cock for her to devour.  She doesn't hesitate.  She has your cock buried down her throat while the husband buries his tongue in her bush.  The husband comes up for air, and moves to her breast, teasing.  You move to the holy of holies.  You lick, suck, and drink in the juices, probing with deep tongue thrusts, tasting the walls of her vaginal cavity while she is licking the husband's cock. Your member is not much different than his. You are relieved.  
       
      The position changes. She lays on her side. He enters her vagina from the rear, leaving her clitoris exposed. She discussed this with you on the phone.  Licking her while her husband fucks.  You go down and start to lick that clitoris, less than a inch from the pounding cock. You remember that he is bi. He wants this. You hesitantly reach up, and start to cradle his jewels, all the time her juices mingles with the fleshy taste of cock.  You can't bring yourself to put his cock in your mouth, so you go on licking the clit and fondling the balls until he grunts and fills her with cum.  He withdraws. You switch position.  His cum lubricates her vagina.  There is nothing sloppy about these seconds. You pound her while he licks and returns the favor of cradling your balls.  He doesn't suck you off, not sure if you will be offended. It doesn't matter he says. They just love fucking.  
       
      You release your semen into her, and you all relax, sitting and talking while a double load of cum streams from her pussy. You regret what the hotel maids will have to clean up. She pees. Returns. The ritual starts again. This time the cunnilingus is mixed with unfamiliar flavors. His cum. Your cum.  You don't give a fuck.  The thrill of the three-way has over ridden any social mores that you were raised with.
       
      More sex. More bi touching. This time you pull out and shoot your cum over her.  With that baptism, the holy rites have been completed. There are photos and kisses given. Promises of future sex.
       
      This was your first threesome.
    • By C3po
      This all started around forty years ago when my wife Beth and I had dated for a few years then married. It wasn't long after we married that I introduced her to her first big realistic porn star dildo.  When she first saw it she laughed and said, "That'll never fit in my pussy, are you nuts?!" But she agreed to trying and found not only did it fit but she really enjoyed it. She was amazed by how much she enjoyed it.  So much so that she requested I use it on her quite a lot. She also discovered she enjoyed big cock porn, she was fascinated by it. Soon was I combining using a huge dildo on her at the same time she watched big cock porn, this led her to experience huge orgasms. She couldn't get enough. She was finally exploring her sexuality and expanding her outlook on sexual pleasure.
       
      One night after some really hot sex I  questioned her if she ever fantasized about fucking other men, especially well-hung men. She responded that of course she did, stated that most women had this fantasy, and she believed it was quite common. So I pursued it further and asked her if she wanted to try another man's cock and how much did she really desire to do it? She said that it sounded exciting and fun but she would never do anything to endanger our marriage. I said,  "What if I told you that I wanted to watch you have sex with another man, one that had a really big cock. Would you then consider it?" She laughed and said she'd be game if it was something I was serious about and really wanted her to do. She said, "Come on, let's be real. It's exciting and fun to imagine it, but to really do it? Please! That's a major game changer."
       
      So I said, "I'm very serious. I've watched the way you enjoy the dildos especially while watching big cock videos. It turns me on big time seeing how excited you get and how many times you climax from doing these two things at the same time. I want to watch you do it for real. No BS, just watching you getting slammed by a big cock would be a huge turn-on for me. So what do you really think now that you know that I'm serious and am giving you this opportunity?"
       
      I could see her giving it some serious thought, she didn't get mad or upset at me or the idea, no resistance whatsoever to my request.  The more she considered the idea the more it appeared to me that she was very intrigued with the idea and it excited her.
       
      She started asking all kinds of questions, like wouldn't I be jealous, or think the worst of her, or what if she really enjoyed it and wanted more or didn't feel comfortable screwing another man, then what? Were there any rules and what were the consequences? Was I absolutely sure that I really wanted her to do this, because once done there was no going back!
       
      After she finished asking everything she had concerns about I answered all her questions and we talked about the rules/boundaries we would have in place to keep it fun and exciting without any reservations or guilt. This was to make sure she fully understood my concerns and alleviate all of hers as well. It seemed she came to a decision at which point she smiled and enthusiastically said yes, she'd do it! Did I have someone special in mind she wondered? She said she had to agree to my choices for her sexual escapades or it wasn't gonna happen.
       
       I then informed her I was thinking of Bruce. Beth squealed with glee, she admitted she has had fantasies about Bruce for some time now and I couldn't have picked a better choice for her first time. She would absolutely love to fuck Bruce. She said she was getting wet thinking about sex with him.
       
      A few days later I met up with Bruce for an after work drink. As we enjoyed several drinks we talked a lot. Soon I steered the conversation towards my wife Beth. I asked  Bruce to be honest and tell me what he thought about Beth. He admitted he thought Beth was smokin' hot. She had a killer body and was just gorgeous, always was friendly, and liked flirting with him when they were together. I asked him if he' ever had the chance would he consider having sex with her? He looked a bit concerned by my question but answered yes, he wouldn't hesitate to take advantage of such an opportunity. So I told him that Beth really wanted to have sex with him, and that I was okay with them hooking up. I explained that was my kink watching her get fucked by other men, it really turned me on. Bruce considered it for several minutes then said okay sure, he'd love to fuck Beth. Just give him the details when we're ready to make it happen.
       
      When I got home I told Beth about my conversation with Bruce and what he said. She looked startled and said she couldn't believe I did that. So I asked her if what I did was so wrong and did she still want to go through with it? She excitedly said Oh hell yes she did, and no I wasn't wrong! So we made plans and set a date for Beth's first cock. 
       
      The night arrived finding Beth both excited and hot with anticipation. She was dressed to kill showing off her sexy body wearing no underwear. When Bruce knocked on the door I answered it and escorted him into our house. Beth entered the living room and gave Bruce a big hug pressing her chest and pelvis into him and then kissed him on the lips. Bruce kissed her back and he sat down pulling her on to his lap. Nether one of them wasted any time, tongues going everywhere, hands exploring and groping each other, clothes coming off. Soon they were both naked and Beth got a pleasant surprise, Bruce was very well hung. She giggled with delight.
       
      Beth took Bruce's hand and led him to our bed. She pushed him down on the bed and went to work on Bruce's big cock giving him an enthusiastic blow job. After a while Bruce flipped Beth on her back and went to work on her pussy and clit. Beth orgasmed in minutes, fully enjoying Bruce's skilled tongue. I stood in the background watching the show.
       
      Soon Bruce moved into position between Beth's legs. As he rubbed his cock against Beth's open pussy and clit she responded with loud moans and started pressing her pussy against Bruce's cock. As he slid his huge cock into Beth's pussy she had a big climax. As he went deeper he increased his speed and Beth climaxed again. She was enthralled with his big cock pumping her pussy, she was moving her hips and swearing, telling him his cock felt so good. She looked over at me and said she loved how good his big cock felt inside her. She told Bruce to stretch her pussy good, to fuck her hard. She was in sexual ecstasy, a place she'd never been before. Her facial expressions showed pure bliss and the sounds she was making were hot as hell. I never seen her so turned on, she must of had a dozen orgasms, many of which were huge.
       
      They fucked each other hard for a good twenty minutes then Bruce erupted into Beth's pussy, filling her with his cum. This gave Beth another climax. Afterwards he laid on Beth for a minute then rolled off her. He'd destroyed her pussy, it gaped open with his cum dripping out of her. They kissed and he got up to dress while Beth laid there spent. She looked at me and smiled big time. She said, "Your turn!", so I took sloppy seconds and enjoyed it beyond belief. Bruce watched us have sex then commented that watching real sex was so much hotter than any porno ever could be. He understood my enjoyment of watching my wife fuck other men. He said he'd like to do it again and Beth was all for it. So they made plans to hook up again. Then Bruce left.
       
      Beth and I talked about how well things went, and how she wasn't prepared for how much she enjoyed his big cock. It was mind boggling! She thanked me profusely for asking her to do this, the opportunity to experience such awesome sex. She says she'll never be the same again and is looking forward to more big cock sex. So our new lifestyle began.
    • By Falcon88
      My wife and I have been together for almost 25 years. Through out the years sex has been fantastic. No complaints on either side. We are very faithful and never cheated on each other.
       
      Then one day two years ago we were having a few drinks and watching porn. We watch all kinds of porn. That night we were watching some really good gangbangs. Curiously, I turn to my wife and asked her if she ever thought about swinging and group sex. If it ever crossed her mind. Surprisingly, she looked at me and said she’s been thinking about it for while. So we ended up talking about swinging and group sex for hours. We got online and read stories on experiences about swinging and group sex. The pros and cons. It turned me on taking about it but at the same time I got a crazy feeling in my stomach. Nerves I guess.
       
      So to make a very long story short we ended up having an open marriage and took up swinging. We both decided to have (safe) sex with other people until we felt comfortable on having our first group sex. All this took very long planning and preparing, especially mentally.
       
      Finally last November we planned out her first group sex. We carefully selected three familiar friends to join in the fun. Of course they decided to do it and agreed on our rules.
       
      So, it finally happened that November night. I really enjoyed watching my wife get screwed by more than one man. She had the time of her life. She had multiple orgasms one after another. The crazy feeling never left my stomach but I really enjoyed watching though. After the guys left we kicked back and talked about our experience. Then we go back about agreeing on what we’re doing and never to do it without the other knowing. We keep an oath of trust. Every time we have a date with someone we let each other know. It’s always planned out days in advance so it will never interfere with our personal lives. We have a great understanding.
       
      Since last November she’s been involved in several group sex averaging 3-4 guys each time. Of course I joined in most of the time. Lots of lube is needed. But now she wants to go a little further. She wants to do a gangbang of 6-8 guys. Seriously.
       
      Lately she’s been playing with large toys to get her vagina ready. She wants to try double-vaginal penetration. I’ve been preparing her by inserting a dildo in her while I’m inside. Very carefully with lots of lube. We practice every time we have sex. She even carefully inserts a large thick toy in her vagina while watching a movie and keeps it in there. Yes, our sexual curiosities has increased tremendously. My wife wants to explore even more and I’m all in.
       
      Well the day we both have been looking forward too occurred this past weekend. We managed to round up 7 guys for an all night gangbang. It involved a lot of planning and phone calls. We’ve noticed that guys will be all in at first then drop out later. But eventually we got things going. That night when everyone arrived she was kinda nervous but excited to have that many cocks at once. Most of all, she finally had double penetration in her vagina from two guys for the first time. The strange thing I seemed more nervous than her. Lol But she absolutely enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed watching her. She came hard many times. She doesn’t like anal so that wasn’t attempted.
       
      So after joining in all the fun and after almost two hours of great sex we had the grand finale. My sexy wife knelt down and we all gave her an awesome bukkake. Her face was drenched with cum. It was one heck of a hot night. After everyone left we took a long shower and stayed up almost all night talking about it. We were both so turned on that we were already making plans for the next one. But we are gonna take a break for about three weeks. It’s just going to be me and her for now.
       
      Yesterday she mentioned about having a messy cum sex in the near future after watching a great creampie movie. I was like, a messy cum sex? She asked me what I would think about her having a messy gooey bukkake and creampie night. Having about 4 guys cum all over her face while 4 guys cum inside her. Then rubbing the cum all over her breasts. Man, just listening to her drove me crazy. My wife was willing to be explosive. But that would take lots of planning because we are very cautious. My wife cannot get pregnant anymore so that’s really something we don’t have to worry about. It’s about the unprotected sex. We do know many cool friends well enough that we can trust but still we must remain careful. Yet, I’m sure it’s gonna happen very soon.
       
      I’ve been asked if we have taken it too far. If there’s actually any sign of regrets. Some close friends wonder about my wife wanting too much now. Our answer is no because we enjoy it and have a deep understanding and trust. We are responsible adults and are having fun. We first talk about what we’re going to do and have to both agree 100%. Any sign of doubt from either side we will not do it. We are friends with our sex partners but no feelings are involved or ever shared. We have proven that to ourselves already.
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