Getting or giving I am happy to enjoy both.
Younger days I did much more giving and my reward was acceptance. Flashback to sneaking home with a boyfriend and the big act was a blowjob. I must have enjoyed because I would do it without any reciprocity, just touching from him. He treated me special and I wanted to do it again and again.
My first time receiving was from my girlfriend, I enjoyed, it was new, I felt it was wrong. Second time was that same friends older brother, I enjoyed but was more focused on him and what he was going to do that day, my first sex.
Over the years, I gave a lot more to guy friends. Not all would give.
Mike and I, once we found the new lifestyle, would search out partners. Laughing now remembering a pickup who I was giving a blowjob to, said I sounded like I was cumming without him touching me, when he went to reach down said I was drenched. He asked if I had an orgasm from just giving.